First of all, I would like to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! The old is now the past and the new is the future to look forward to.
2008 was an interesting year for me. I was at my heaviest weight ever and decided enough was enough and made the decision that I've not regretted. I lost a total of 14kg by the end of the year and down to 1 dress size less. This tranformation is still a work in progress and so it will continue.
My biggest struggle for the year was when my spiritual walk hit rock bottom. I did things that I should not have done and tested God's patience in every way I could. But our God is an awesome and merciful God. He was patient and brought me back on the road less travelled but one that is travelled with Him. My greatest lesson is to "Let Go, and Let God".
The year 2008 was also a year of giving up and moving on. Part of my lesson in letting go and letting God was to give up a certain person in my life. This person is Jack In The Box. He had quite a role to play in my life and in making me realize that not everyone you meet in life will be good for you. Yet a another big decision to make, it was time to move on. I did and with no regrets.
NeighbourlyLeeLian also announced that she would be moving away from our neighbourhood. Definitely a very shocking announcement that had both of us in tears. After 27 years of living on the same street, my neighbour was finally moving away. It's the end of an era but not the end of a childhood friendship.
This post also marks the end of a chapter in my life. It has been long on my mind and so I finally made the decision to close my blog for good. I have not regretted putting my life out there for everyone to see while it lasted. For me, it was a time of experimentation of technology, opening a part of myself that I very often hide and more importantly, it was sharing my life with you.
I would like to take this time to thank YOU for taking the time to pop by my blog and for taking the time to pen down your thoughts whenever you did. This blog has meant much to me and so I will be making a hard copy of it along with your comments as my way of cherishing this chapter of my life. Maybe I'll come back someday when its time to open another chapter.
Farewell to you my friends, this is AndreaLingLing, signing off for the last time.
This is long overdue...Ed & SmallCyn's wedding pictures...the star at our table was BabyArchie.
The college girlfriends (well...some of us)
The task of giving a speech (JosiePosie & I)
The star at our table...BabyArchie! He was such a good baby. Never cried at all throughout the night.
FoxyIsabel feeding me while I babysit Archie. She just had to get one of me like that.
Yum Seng-ing with the couple
The college friends
I'm not pouting. I was making funny faces at Archie which makes him laugh a lot. He's a very happy baby.
To Ed & SmallCyn, I wish you every happiness in your marriage. May love always be the point where your two souls meet.
I don't want to talk too much about my recent homecoming with God for fear that things may turn the opposite in just a split second. My spirit is fragile and I am still rebelling but yet I know I must struggle to journey the road less travelled.
Anyway, God never ceases to amaze me especially in the more recent times of my life. The first week I reconciled with God, I rebelled against him. He taught me my first lesson with Jack In The Box. I will not detail it here as it is something of the past now and I do not want to remember that strange situation that I was put into. God's first lesson for me was 'let go and let God'. I needed to stop trying to take control and he taught me just that with this messy situation. It was also time for me to realize that Jack In The Box was a chapter I needed to close for good. Dear readers, Jack In The Box is now officially deleted from this blog, my phonebook and my life.
The next thing I needed to learn was to let go of people that were not in-sync with His plan for me i.e. Vainpot. My prayer was that if this person or relationship was not mine to be, then for him to take away the thoughts of wanting anything with this person. God did just that.
I still think of Vainpot...wait...but not in that way anymore. I think of him because I pray for a friend to come to know my Saviour the way I know Him. And that's the story for the day.
For the past few years, I have put God aside and I have outwardly claimed that I will put him on time out. I'm not proud of what I did but I did it anyway. I needed time away from him to figure things out. It was a 'break up'.
The past few weeks, I have been faced with happenings in my family's life as well as my own. Some of the events have led me to doubt my own abilities and also to question my faith. One of the biggest issues in my own personal life has always been about my love life. I have constantly struggled in the face of love and I still struggle with it now.
I was looking for some easy reading materials lately that touched on my faith and DannyBoy lent me this book by Elisabeth Elliot. My initial reaction to reading this book was that I couldn't grasp the idea she was suggesting and I rebelled against its content. But the more I read, the more I realized the truth in it and I knew I couldn't run anymore.
Lord, please save me....I can't do it on my own anymore...
Seperation is a choice and it starts with you...
On a side note, my birthday wish came true. I'm feeling with warm with gladness and excitement. He said, "You may not believe what I say but I've been wanting to take you out and treat you to something special." Made me smile from my heart...something I haven't done in a while.