Extra Cash

The other day, I had to put in extra hours at the office so at about 8pm, I decided to take my car out of the parking lot and park it in front of my office building, which a lot of people do usually. When I came out at about 9 something, I was quite surprised to see so few cars left but it didn't srtike me as anything funny. I got into the car and then I saw the ticket stuck under my windscreen wiper..."No wonder there were no cars around! Darn!"

Sigh....I got a RM50 ticket for parking my car on the yellow line.

I'm already so broke as it is and I have to get a ticket at 8.30pm! I kept worrying about how muhc I had left for the month and I thought to myself, looks like I'll have to bring food from home in order to survive untill pay day.

Last night, I said to God, "God, I need money.." And then this morning he answers my prayer. As I went to the counter to pay for my summons, the girl said, "why dont you go over to the counter opposite to get the price lowered." I looked at her in disbelief, "oh...ok!" So with the price being lowered...I now have extra cash to last me till pay day...PHEW! Thank You God!

I Am

The past week has been an experience that has humbled me in many ways especially when it comes to trusting God Himself. I thought I was strong, but I realized that in His eyes, I am still a child. But it is at this time that I found another song by Nichole Nordeman that put this week into picture for me and puts all glory to His name. The song is called "I Am".

Pencil marks on a wall I wasn't always this tall,
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed,
You watched my team win,
You watched my team lose,
You watched when my bicycle went down again,

CHORUS:
And When I was weak unable to speak,
still I could call You by name,
and I said “Elbow healer, Superhero,come if You can,�
and You said “I am�

Only 16, life is so mean,
what kind of curfew is at 10pm
You saw my mistakes, You watched my heart break
Heard when I swore I’d never love again

CHORUS:
When I was weak, unable to speak,
still I could call You by name,
and I said “Heart-ache Healer, Secret-keeper,be my Best Friend�
and You said “I am�

You saw me wear white, by pale candlelight,
I said forever to what lies ahead
two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream
too much it might seem when it’s 2am

CHORUS:
when I am weak, unable to speak,
still I will call You by name.
“Oh Shepherd, Savior, Pasture-maker,hold on to my hand,�
and You say “I am.�

The winds of change,
And circumstance blow in and all around
us so we find a foothold that’s familiar,
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer

Life had begun, I was woven and spun,
You let the angels dance around the throne,
who can say when, But they’ll dance again,
when I am free and finally headed home

CHORUS:
I will be weak, unable to speak,
still I will call You by name
“Creator, Maker, Life-sustainer,
Comforter, Healer, My Redeemer,
Lord and King, Beginning and the End,
I am, yes, I am.�

Uncertainty

An air on uncertainty floats around me...I've been working in the company for 5 months now and next month, my boss will determine whether I get confirmed into the company. My colleagues are saying I shouldn't worry about it as my boss likes me and will defintely confirm me in but yet each time I make a mistake with my work, I can't help but worry that he would take those mitakes into consideration.

The other day, during a Work In Progress (WIP) meeting with the client, he kept asking me to look into all the issues that our client brought up while my other colleague who also works on the same account just sat there. My colleagues say that its because he trust that I will get the job done and that is why he is asking me to do the job. I can't help but feel that on the other hand, he could be testing me instead.

It doesnt help that the Newbie is eating lunch with the account servicing team because they asked her while I'm eating my lunch at the office with my other colleagues. It is true that I choose to eat at the office rather than go out. I'm not jealous, but it just goes to show how much of a team mate I am to them.

I have been feeling this way about my work for 2 weeks now. I have made blunders that have sometimes made me feel stupid in front of others. I can't help but feel the uncertainty of my work...I can't help but feel scared, left out...just plain worried.

Lord, when I am weak and unable to speak...still I can call you by name...Father of my heart, please hold my hand...

Touching Heaven, Changing Earth

There's an issue that has been burning a hole in my heart because I haven't wrote or talked to anyone about it. Sigh...here are the events leading up to this

Sunday, during service, Andrew spoke of 'being and becoming'....summary to the message...'touching heaven, changing earth'. That theme has stuck to me ever since. On monday, a few of us gathered to discuss the plans of the group for 2006. But before we could get any plans out, we talked about the group as a whole. I'll leave the details of that meeting out. But again, the same theme came up....Jason's view of this year had connection to 'touching heaven, changing earth'. That's two signs for me. The third one came last night as I listened to Nichole Nordeman before going to bed. The same theme again.

Something in me keeps telling me that this may be the theme for my life this year. To be what God has intended for me to be, to be part of the plans he has for me so that I may become to woman of God that he wants me to be. But before I can do any of this, I need to come clean with Him who created me.

And this is not for me alone, this seems to be directed to us as a group of creative evangelizers. Being and becoming....touching heaven, changing earth....

Friends, my theme for this year to touch heaven, and make a difference on earth.

Memoirs Of A Geisha

Coming in cinemas nationwide on 19 Jan 2006. I wanna watch!!!!! Anyone else??

Who wants to watch?? 

CD Wish List

My CD Wish List

1) Simply Red - Best of Simply Red

2) Santana - All That I Am

3) Lisa Loeb - The Very Best of Lisa Loeb (I WANT!!!)

4) Rob Thomas - Something To Be

5) Alanis Morissete - So Called Chaos & The Collection

6) Frank Sinatra - Best Of Frank Sinatra

7) The Corrs - Borrowed Heaven

New Year

Happy New Year everyone!

It has been a wild and crazy 2005. From being unemployed to becoming a workaholic according to my Philippina girl friend Hazel. Lost my favourite kitty, Precious to street dogs. Jack In The Box went MIA. Inviting people out for lunch and never getting an answer from them...sigh...what's new? What is it with guys and not replying to a lunch invitation???!!! Can one of you please explain this to me...

Anyways, enough of all that. Here's to a new year. As much as I hope for a peaceful one, I dont think I'll get my wish...after all, what would I do without this roller coaster ride...

And to the rest of you, have a good new year. And like Davin says, have fun and joy but also have enough tears to make you realize this life is real....or something like that...

Keepin it real...