Love, Life & Other Mysteries

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Save Me

For the past few years, I have put God aside and I have outwardly claimed that I will put him on time out. I'm not proud of what I did but I did it anyway. I needed time away from him to figure things out. It was a 'break up'.

The past few weeks, I have been faced with happenings in my family's life as well as my own. Some of the events have led me to doubt my own abilities and also to question my faith. One of the biggest issues in my own personal life has always been about my love life. I have constantly struggled in the face of love and I still struggle with it now.

I was looking for some easy reading materials lately that touched on my faith and DannyBoy lent me this book by Elisabeth Elliot. My initial reaction to reading this book was that I couldn't grasp the idea she was suggesting and I rebelled against its content. But the more I read, the more I realized the truth in it and I knew I couldn't run anymore.

Lord, please save me....I can't do it on my own anymore...