Love, Life & Other Mysteries

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Saved By Grace

I've been through hell and back. The last few months have really been a test of perseverence for me. Over the last weekend, I dropped to a point so low that I was willing to give it all up and say goodbye to my troubles and the world. The only thing that kept me alive was the thought that if I ended my life, I would have committed the most sinful act on myself and I would never be able to meet my creator.
I thank God for that thought and I thank God for friends who reached out to me when I called for help. I may have pushed them to the edge as well but I am thankful that they stucked by me through it all. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
The one most beautiful thing I learnt about God through this experience is that He allows you to go to your lowest point in life because He wants you to lean on him and to trust Him that he knows best. Of course, I did not think of all this while I was at my lowest point. The only thought was "Why had He forsaken me?" We only learn the things we do when He pulls us out of our lowest. And that is what happened to me.
I was scheduled for an interivew with an advertising company on Monday. When I went in, the General Manager was frank with me and told me that he was already on the verge of confirming a candidate when my CV came in. He prayed about it and he said that something in him kept telling him to call me and he did. The rest of my interview is history. He offered me the job yesterday.
All this while, I have gone for countless interviews and I have not been able to secure anyone of them. Maybe it was God's way of telling me that the best is yet to come. And I think He's right. He made me wait so long, so that the right job will land in my hands.
I think the same goes for the life partner that I'm looking for. I've been through all the heartache but I do know now that the best is yet to come. So even when I'm at my lowest, I remember that God knows best and that he will provide the best.
To everyone who has been there for me one way or another, thank you. To those of you who are expereinceing hardship in your life, I know how you feel and I empathize with you but be assured that "All things work for good to those who love Him and are called according to His will."

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