Chances
I used to believe in chances when it came to men...I was so hopeful, that with much effort I would be able to snag the guy that I liked but after many failed attempts..I've given up hope on even trying.
The other day, I talked to Winnee, my favourite Psychology lecturer and I told her about this new crush that I had on this guy in my class...yes..my hubba hubba...I was so excited but I told her about his attraction with older women and with that I let out my sigh of frustration and failure. I told her he was out of my league. And then out of no where she came up with this whole pep talk about taking chances telling me that I shouldn't let my chances go just because I thought he was out of my league. She said that she was once like me and she kept telling herself that that now she's still single. Sh told me that she didn't want me ending up like her and that I should just grab opportunities whenever they came by. I agreed deep down that she was right but then that was before today...
I was having replacement classes in school and then there he was..his parents were there and there she was...his girlfriend..I had to keep smiling to keep from crying..
I guess thats the thing with crushes...when you find yourself getting deeper into it..you should just walk away because it's not worth the tears. Now my chances are really gone because there is no way that it's ever gonna turn out for me.
Luckily, I still have another Hubba Hubba...he's the guy that works at the promo kiosk opposite from me and he is so sexy...he has this look when he looks at you..the kind of look that says that he's up to something...it doesn't help that he is into music and lives to work for his music. He's the silent type and so not my kind but hell, he's sexy! With the other Hubba Hubba...I thought of long term relationships because thats what you think of when you look at him but with this guy Adrian...when you look at him, all you think about is what it's like to kiss him and thats the only thing you can think of...
Chances...when have they even been of good use?...of course there are women who have taken chances and found love but with me..it's not gonna happen.
The other day, I talked to Winnee, my favourite Psychology lecturer and I told her about this new crush that I had on this guy in my class...yes..my hubba hubba...I was so excited but I told her about his attraction with older women and with that I let out my sigh of frustration and failure. I told her he was out of my league. And then out of no where she came up with this whole pep talk about taking chances telling me that I shouldn't let my chances go just because I thought he was out of my league. She said that she was once like me and she kept telling herself that that now she's still single. Sh told me that she didn't want me ending up like her and that I should just grab opportunities whenever they came by. I agreed deep down that she was right but then that was before today...
I was having replacement classes in school and then there he was..his parents were there and there she was...his girlfriend..I had to keep smiling to keep from crying..
I guess thats the thing with crushes...when you find yourself getting deeper into it..you should just walk away because it's not worth the tears. Now my chances are really gone because there is no way that it's ever gonna turn out for me.
Luckily, I still have another Hubba Hubba...he's the guy that works at the promo kiosk opposite from me and he is so sexy...he has this look when he looks at you..the kind of look that says that he's up to something...it doesn't help that he is into music and lives to work for his music. He's the silent type and so not my kind but hell, he's sexy! With the other Hubba Hubba...I thought of long term relationships because thats what you think of when you look at him but with this guy Adrian...when you look at him, all you think about is what it's like to kiss him and thats the only thing you can think of...
Chances...when have they even been of good use?...of course there are women who have taken chances and found love but with me..it's not gonna happen.
Posted by andrea at 4:48 PM ::
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1 Comments:
hey my dear, i never thought u really meant it when u said adrian is sexy. was even more shocked when u said u can only think of what is it like to kiss him when u look at him. hehe..probably because i never felt that way about him at all :P
anyway, i guess i can identify with what u said, regarding what it feels like to have a crush on someone. i've developed countless crushes in my entire life!
there are women who take chances and found love. you will too my dear. in God's time :)
dun feel despair juz yet kay? muakks. take care and do keep in touch ya. btw, tmrw's my last day in toko..hoooray~~~ merdeka~~
-erica-
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